hot herbal highlands

 just woke up from a nap I did not intend to take. it's warm today, and sunny, which I'm glad for. I've been home for a couple of hours now after a trip to my parents' house, where I spent the night for the first time in a long time. it felt weird, and reminded me of one of my poems, which I'll share with you now. like slipping into old, familiar clothes comfortable, but not flattering. it was originally about something much different. I wrote it to describe the way it feels to slip backwards after making progress against a bad habit. the bad habit in this case is being a bitch to my brother, who I have complicated feelings toward. he had an episode, so to speak, and I became very angry, yet secretly pleased because I knew that I had a valid reason to feel this anger, and I would milk it for every drop of justification it would give me. so after months of being less cold and more friendly, I returned to the old ways of leaving a room just because he walked in, prete...

 the title is a lyrical excerpt of baby by justin bieber. funny how much they read like a transcript for sex when you just get the words with no melody.   I started my period last night and didn't have breakfast today so I nearly passed out at the grocery store like an hour ago. I'm home eating grapes now so I guess I'm fine. very hungry and desirous of a true meal, though. my roommate max is shaving as I write this.. these grapes are so fuckign good...... they actaully have a little bit of a lychee accent if you can believe that. so, Yucatan is best friends with Cairo and Fumingo. He has feelings for Cairo. his appearance is heavily inspired by Dave Mustaine (when he was young)... long, luscious curly orange/red hair, black skinny jeans with bullet belt. although sometimes I reconsider the bullet belt since it doesn't really match Yuca's personality. he's a little too soft for it, not edgy or militaristic at all.    Yucatan is patient, understanding, respectful...

 today was fine I guess. I got shit sleep (like one and a half hours. I couldn't even doze off until like 5 AM. apparently drinking two Thai iced teas in the evening isn't good for sleep.) despite said shitty sleep, nothing bad happened today. I wasn't even woozy like I was last time I went to work sleep deprived. a nice lady gave me candy and a $20 tip. much appreciated! anywayyyyys so today I'm gonna share Cairo!!! she's one of Fumingo's two best friends, who I mentioned in the last post.     I'll write out the text from the first image: "brave, sweet, gentle, quick thinker, always takes a dare, loyal, thick skulled. fatal flaw: can't back down. strong morals, selfless, ambivert, low capacity for magic. can get along with anyone."  she's obviously got good self esteem and quite a bit of self confidence as well. however, she can come across as pushy and/or bossy sometimes, and may annoy people with the strength of her views at times as wel...

   today was better than the day of my last post. it's Monday this time and I was off work, as usual, and spent my time oscillating between listening to music and trying to focus on the task at hand. the task was cleaning my apartment. I didn't do a good job of focusing, but damn if I didn't clean the hell out of it!! it just took... maybe 3 times as long as usual.    the ps5 is doing better now. it turns out that the HDMI port was deformed by the incident, but if you put it in just right, it works. so Max is off the hook currently in terms of paying for the sins of his cat.   I've decided that instead of being just a place for me to put poetry, I'll use these posts for all my creative works. today, it will be drawings.  these are some doodles, mostly of a character named Fumingo. she can be gloomy and pessimistic sometimes but is unafraid to go against the grain or do things most people would balk from. she's stylish and wouldn't be caught dead in an unfla...

 today, I feel pretty lonely. I felt lonely last Friday too. as for why it happens every Friday now... who knows! my boyfriend's playstation broke last night. our roommate Max's cat got tangled in one of the cords and ended up knocking it off the shelf supported only by the wires. it was funny but not funny at the same time. I'm waiting to decide which one I think it is. well, just kidding- I think it's funny after all, I just don't want to say so because it was frustrating for him (and not to mention expensive) :3 oh well!  I think that I'll make this blog about my poetry. Todays poem is: can't you just let me push forward endlessly faster godspeed like a beam of light? shattering scattering at the first sign of resistance it was inspired by a line in a Megadeth song that I've always liked ("speed of light trapped under my [car's] hood"). I absolutely love driving fast. it feels like a thrilling puzzle that sharpens my focus. until someone...